Out of my life.
I was wrong,
I’m to blame,
I was so untrue.
I can’t live without her love…”
I love the song “She’s Gone” by Steelheart, an American rock band in 90th. I have always loved this song. Recently this song holds a special place in my heart.
Yes. I have a daughter. She is not gone yet. But she will be soon, a month later. My daughter Sarah, my first child is going to college in New York. She was 11 months old when I came to the USA. She was a chubby little baby who was not able to walk and talk. Now she has grown up to go to college. It’s been a great joy and privilege to witness all the footsteps she has taken.
She was not only my child but a friend, a big supporter and a huge critic. She has proofread my sermons for 7 years and never stopped encouraging me and correcting my poor English writing, improving it in the process.
She has taken anger, bitterness, and even bad jokes from her parents when my wife and I got stressed out and brought it home. Yes, I regret it because I know what it is like, as I have experienced the same things from my childhood as a pastor’s kid.
She never asked me to buy her nice things, except for her prom dresses. She appreciated it when her mom got something for her from a garage sale. She seldom asked me to go out to eat expensive food.
Now she is leaving soon. I think Jesus might have had the same feeling since as He sent His disciples, He said, “Go on your way. See, I am sending you out like lambs into the midst of wolves.” (Luke 10:3)
It might be the same feeling for other parents who have their kids leave their homes soon. Let me bless my little girl and all the other graduates and family.
“And it is my prayer that your love may abound more and more, with knowledge and all discernment, so that you may approve what is excellent, and so be pure and blameless for the day of Christ.” (Philippians 1:9-10)
“The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.” (Deuteronomy 31:8)